someone
用这个名字好几年    有时候会因为感到平乏而换做stan    也只是偶尔而已
那个时候刚有了自己的QQ  不知道可以用什么称谓
讨厌那些用乱七八糟的字体和符号瞎弄成的名字
一种恶俗的感觉 
当时的自己 懵懵懂懂的高一小女生 
因为喜欢一个人而喜欢他喜欢的孙燕姿
如此单纯直白 很幼稚却可爱的理由 
后来后来 就真的喜欢上了燕姿  由爱屋及乌到发自内心
质的飞跃 呵呵
有那么一首歌   someone
唱出了一个我喜欢的女生的样子   
她敏感脆弱  却执著坚强 
someone     Cuz  it's an amazing name 

stan up!!!
第一次发现这个词  是在一家音像店里五颜六色的CD架中 
某一个以灰色为主调的CD封套上 跃然而出
挣扎 痛苦表情的石膏像旁边
硬生生地印刻着 stan up!!!
口语  振作
于是开始真正听黄立行的歌   一次又一次获得心灵的释放 震撼 以及感动
我时常想到《台北晚九朝五》里   他的垂发和胡渣以及烟草味的堕落
想到《星情故事》里  他挺拔而专情的帅气
想到《寻找》里  他迷茫而安静的姿态
easy说过一句话
世间怎么会有如此的男子   可以让我如此魂牵梦萦
没错  这个男人对于我就是这样的
这个石膏像 真实记录了立行被埋在石膏里近乎窒息的表情
有如我时常看到的生活 那些阴暗的东西 的确会令人近乎窒息
然而窒息的表情旁 却有一句振作 
知不知道 要振作 我重复的对自己说 
情绪低落 失控的时候 一句简简单单的stan up
就可以成为精神的救命稻草
每次难过和无助的时候  告诉自己  振作  振作  振作
一切都会好的

是的  stan up!!! someone ...
一切都会好的

someone

my hair was long shining
you said you can't believe
how could walk our that door
or walk along the streets
you told me i should you know
do some bing bang curly wurly afro thing
i took your word did
looked in my mirror
who's that freak
why does the world deceive
why do i make believe
took my heel made
achilles out of me still
so i won't wanna be
someone who's answer to me
someone who sees like a child
give like a saint
feel like an angel
never mind the broken wings
and speak like a picture
cry like the rain
shine like the star
as long as the fire remains

the vase beside my bed
it's empty a most dead
it's for all the flowers i'm gonna give you he said
and now it's collecting qust instead 
why does the world deceive
why do i make believe
took my heel made
achilles out of me still
so i won't wanna be
someone who's answer to me
someone who sees like a child
give like a saint
feel like an angel
never mind the broken wings
and speak like a picture
cry like the rain
shine like the star
as long as the fire remains


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i'm
Lu  Yinlan / Stan

i'm
21

i live in
SHANGHAI

QQ>>> 156259042
MSN>>>stanupsomeone@hotmail.com


Hey you are here ! >3<